Qara' leb `ataph

If you think accepting Jesus would make your life easier, think again! In fact He promised you 3 things; a change of lifestyle, a different point of view and a life filled with trials! And believe me, it's absolutely true.
I was planning to to join the college outreach. Yeah, it was my plan! But then God had a different plan for me; He wanted me to go back to my hometown. Upon realizing His plans, it was like painful! I don't wanna go back to my home town. Not because I hate the place but because I know I'm not yet strong. I was afraid that I might go with the flow of the unbelieving world again and get lost, I don't wanna be separated from Him again. But even if I didn't understand it I know I have to follow His will because I know that if there's anything more painful than failure it's disobeying my Lord so I hold on to His promise that He will never leave me nor forsake me and went on my way.

♥scene 1: I met up with my bestfriend, and you know what she told me? "I know you're in the Jesus thing, but while you're still here in Sindangan, just shut it." I couldn't believe what was coming out of her mouth! Shouldn't friends be leading each other to Christ and not away from Him? Eventhough she is my bestfriend and I love her, I love God more, and there's no stopping me from making His words be heard, even if it means rejection.

♥ It was my friend's birthday. He consider himself a Christian but he is living a crisis of duplicity. In church he becomes a holy boy, in school he becomes a role model but when he's in our hometown, he becomes an unbeliever again. Drinking, speaking foul language, and totally setting aside the Lord. I rebuke him but he shrugged it off and said it's only once in a while and it's no big deal. But it is. Beside, sembreaks doesn't mean you can have a break from being a Christian. What he was doing was like feeding his dead nature, and that's just foolish. If only I could have told him this, "What if the one who traded His life for yours just so you be spared from the wrath of the Father, the one who took your place on the cross, the one who offered Himself as a living sacrifice just so your sins would be forgiven place His nail puncture hand on your shoulder would you dare invite Him to drink beer with you or be proud of yourself when He hears you speaking "the language"?"

♥scene 3: Me and my friends were having a conversation and I just can't help but notice that I was out of place. I didn't know what they were talking about, the terms they were using and i wasn't enjoying our conversation at all. Everytime I would try to insert Jesus they would move to another topic and their idea of fun wasn't clean at all. I was listening to the type of relationships they were in and it was clear that they weren't offering nor honoring Jesus in it. I realized that everything that God had said about us Christian to be left out, rejected and denied by the world was happening to me. I realized that even if I am in the world I was not of it anymore. Yes I breathe but I'm dead because I died along Jesus' crucifixion. My sinful nature had died and I am a new creation. I was sad that I'm no longer able to communicate with my friends but at the same time my soul rejoices because God had made me see that I am truly His child.

jah see, being a Christian isn't being carefree. For as long as we are in this world we are in a battle field. battling not only with what's seen but battling also with will of our own flesh. But God so love us and is so gracious that He transforms us into individuals seeking to be better and not bitter. Changing us more like His son- Jesus. And what was Jesus in this world? Nope, He did not come here as someone rich and mighty but He came humble. He was rejected and persecuted but God was with Him and He overcome the world. And so will you if you are willing to accept and follow Jesus<><