True Loves Waits
Before I came to know the Lord,
believe me or not,
I was not your "mahinhin" girl!
Dating for me was a sport.
I'm not bragging
but I was good at it.
I mean,
every now and then
I was with a different guy.
Love was just a game for me.
I got fed up of getting fooled
by guys I took seriously
but only broke me physically, emotionally,
and ore importantly, spiritually.
When I finally had a relationship with the Lord,
everything changed then.
From the way I dress up
to the way I mingle with the opposite sex.
Everything was just simply "illuminated".
and I learned how to guard my heart
as well as other feelings.
Love for me is no longer a game.
But is something that should be cherished.
Love, after all, set me free.
God's love set me free.
I remember the movie,
Pamela's Prayer.
When Pamela told her father
that he wanted to date someone.
And she even tried to convince him
by telling him that her friend's parents
allow her friend to date anyone
as long as the guy is a christian.
The father said,
"I wonder what Jessica's future husband
would say about that...
pass forward to your wedding day
then to the wedding night.
Would you prefer the guy
who dated a lot of girls
and did not wait,
or the guy who waited
and saved all his love for you?"
I know I did not wait.
I was unfaithful
and impatient.
And I regret everything I've done.
Now I know the true love is patient,
it waits and doesn't rush,
it builds and doesn't destroy,
most of all
it leads you more to Christ
than to each other or to the world.
I wish I knew earlier.
Looking back at every stupid thing I've done
makes me wanna hide and disappear
afraid that I might see those people I used to
"hang-out" with.
I know that it would be hard for them to believe
that the wild, date-crazy girl back then
is now anti-dating
or should I say
finally waiting for the Holy Ghost Boy
God's been preparing for me all this time.
Actually, now,I find it stupid
Everytime I find myself having feeling to someone.
I would really struggle,
constantly praying to Gog to just take the feeling away!
Weird?
Unlike others, I don't see such feelings as blessings (yet).
Because it's most of the time it would hinder me
from really giving God my undivided attention.
I want my heart to beat more for Jesus
than for anybody else.
Perhaps when I'm 30, I'll be ready to meet him.
But until the time I'm totally focused on Jesus,
I simply pray
that my heart will beat for Jesus,
and Hima lone.
Like what the Barlow girls sang,
"No more dating,
I'm just waiting..
Like sleeping beauty
my prince will come for me."
Come to think of it
I'm excited and in love
in love with someone I haven't
laid eyes on.
Someone who'll accept me,
even my unfaithful past.
When or where I'll see him
I really don't know.
I'm still young
and I do know that now
is not the time for me to see him
(though I'm really excited to)
but I'm faithful
that when that time comes,
I'll definately know that it's him.
and I know he will love everything about me,
even my uncute, tear-streaked face.
"No more dating,
I'm just waiting..
Like sleeping beauty
my prince will come for me."
Come to think of it
I'm excited and in love
in love with someone I haven't
laid eyes on.
Someone who'll accept me,
even my unfaithful past.
When or where I'll see him
I really don't know.
I'm still young
and I do know that now
is not the time for me to see him
(though I'm really excited to)
but I'm faithful
that when that time comes,
I'll definately know that it's him.
and I know he will love everything about me,
even my uncute, tear-streaked face.
0 comments:
Post a Comment