Qara' leb `ataph

I stand here before you Lord, just as I am.
No more pretence.
No more lies.
No more distressing on what people will say.
No more concerns on how I should act.
No more pressures of what I have to be;
For I’m jaded of wearing this mask.
I’m tired of hiding this tear stained face.
So I’m taking off my disguise that I had on for so long.
Lord, here I am.

Lord, this is me.
I am bared and stripped, but just look inside.
All that I could be, you can plainly see it all.
Though it’s hard for me to be real.
I’m trying to let you see who I really am.
I have nothing else to give but my life-song.
I have nothing to offer but myself and my imperfection.
I know that I am worthless.
For I have no talents, and my plans are but futile.
But God take me in.
For Lord, here I am.

I confess I am broken.
I confess that I’m tattered.
I know that I couldn’t go from here anymore.
Breathe life to me Lord.
For I need a healer.
Lord, I need a comforter.
I need someone to remove the filth that I carry.
Lord, I need you.
Oh God fix me and mend me indeed.
Here I am.

You’re the only one who truly understands me.
You alone accept for who I am.
Though I know that I am unlovable, still your faithfulness never fails.
You had lifted and never let me drown.
You swept me off my feet with your amazing grace.
You had melted my heart with your words so sweet.
Lord, I yearn for more of you.
Open my heart and go deeper Lord.
Here I am.

Lord, through my unpretty you tell me I’m beautiful.
Though I always give up on you, you never did give up on me.
Though I stumbled so many times, you always did pick me up.
Though I had broken your heart everyday, you still forgive me.
And Lord, though I strayed, you were still there watching over me.
Lord, is this how you love?
Then I want to have more.
So here I am.

Because I know that I am weak.
I know that I am fragile.
And I’m but afraid to let the people see.
But remind that I do live this life for you and you alone.
So let everything fade away Lord.
And gloriously shine bright.
And Lord, teach me to love like you had loved me so.
For I want my heart to beat for you more,
Than for anyone else.
Lord, I want to see and you alone.
Here I am.

And I desire to be pure as snow for you Lord,
Though it breaks me inside.
But if it pleases you so;
Then just please you’ll hold me tight.
So Lord, empty me.
Empty me of anything that is of me Lord.
For I desire to be filled by you and only you alone.
I desire to please you.
I desire to see you smiling down on me.
Oh Lord, lead me for your name’s sake.
Here I am.

Lord, all that I want to be,
It’s because of you.
Because I want you to be please.
I want to make you proud.
Lord, this is me.
This is the Karyll that you see.
With no more pretence and no more hiding.
I give you my heart Lord.
Here I am.

Lord, here I am.
Please be here with me.

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